SOMETHING

keep thinking...

maybe he's right...

i have something...

maybe i'm not too smart...

or i just don't realized...

that i am somebody for them...

or maybe its drown together with my inappropriate 'humble' feeling...

yes...ignorance..thats what i always did...

maybe they don't realized...

i don't care too much of my heart...

covered them all with my smile...

you not a small little girl anymore rite??

you treasured all the path of your life ...

you keep some of your desire secretly...

because you feel u don't deserve to ask for it...

enough asking...i want to give something...

DESPERATELY i want to GIVE them something...

~ i love my parents ~

p/s: thank u...u always relieved me with your advices..love to hear them out of your heart...=)

horay!!

Alhamdulillah...

tido yg seminggu tu..aku dh cover...

10 jam tido!!!!

pasni harap2 mata semakin cantik ye..

*tkde org tegor lg =p

exam dh habis...diamm...dgr....aku nk jerit..

HORRRRAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!

korang tk tau betapa seksanya exam kali ni....bermacam2

PRESSURE!!

dari pelbagai pihak...hurrmm..

harap2 result ok...

nak balik nak balik nak balik!!!!!

sejak 2 menjak ni aku selalu ter bace2 ayat best2..one of them that catch my mind;

Immature love says:
'I love you because I need you.'

Mature love says:

'I need you because I love you.'

by Erich Fromm

judge yourself..

are u matured enough??

love and need

two different words and meaning..

don't 'used' people u love..

but make yourself useful for him or her..

enough for this entry..actually aku dh bosan dok bilik...hbs exam pon masalah..yea jom main tennis ke kuruskan bhgn yg tk kurus..bina stamina yg sudah hilang!!

Esok!

aku tak sabar tunggu esok!!!!!

dekat sebulan kot...aku 'puasa'

FACEBOOK!!

WINDOW SHOPPING!!

esok jugak antara paper killer...

ECONOMETRICS!!!!

sengal btl pompuan ni..ape kes nk jerit2..

dekat sebulan kot bertungkus lumus..kononnye...

dan hasilnye....

PANDA EYES!!!!

WEIGHT LOSS OR WEIGHT GAIN????

PASRAH JAWAB EXAM!!

enough!! tunggu esok la ape jadi...

apesal la tbe2 nak marah2 ni...

Astaghfirullahalazim....

senyum.... :)

teruskan belajar....

Perfect Two

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly

You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly

You can be the captain and I can be your first mate

You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick

You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split

You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'

Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be

Without you cause boy you complete me

And in time I know that we'll both see

That we're all we need

Cause your the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause you are the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess

You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist

You can be the shoes and I can be the laces

You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser

You can be the pencil and I can be the paper

You can be as cold as the winter weather

But I don't care as long as we're together

Don't know if I could ever be

Without you cause boy you complete me

And in time I know that we'll both see

That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya

And you know that I think about ya

And you know I can't live without ya

I love the way that you smile

And maybe in just a while

I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause you're the apple to my pie

You're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)

And I'm the one for you (for you)

You take the both of us (of us)

And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

We're the perfect two

Baby me and you

We're the perfect two

p/s: yea...utk awak...ade tnye lagi..haha

what a day~~

the night before

fokus gila...

seryes tk pernah fokus camtu...

tak payah on music or karok pon still blh entertain..

dgn notes yg mcm cacing..tp kau tetap tabah!

hati kata jgn tidur!

tapi otak begging u to stop...

ok..then u stop...

tp jari ni menari2 tulis step kt atas bantal..

cian budak ni...dh gler...

tido mcm tk tido...

the morning before

malasnye nk bgn...

ade niat nk bakar dewan exam...mcm kt UM..

lompat2 depan gf tanye soklan...

gf pon buat muke blurr...

tgk notes lg...dh tak gune...

on the way before

rasa nk press motor laju2...

kalau jatuh tak yah amik exam...

tp terigt gf kt belakang ni...

jom la nyanyi2 atas motor sambil hirup habuk bus...

kalau hari2 camni, cepat mati aku nnti...

during that moment

selawat dan doa tak putus2...

haila....knp bnyk sgt tk nk kuar kt kepala ni...

knp main sorok2...buatpe malu2...

aku biar je tangan ni gerakkan pen tu...

tah betul tak...

yg kosong tk berjawab tu sorry la ye...

bkn tk nk jawab...kamu tk cntk sgt utk di jawab...

huaaaaa..padahal aku lupa....

after the moment

still dgn muka blurr

hey..nk buat mcm mane...

terasa sgt sakit sampai tk mampu nk menangis pon...

tgk muke gf...tnye die...knp aku tk nanges??

gf aku gelak....

MAT363

kan aku dh ckp aku benci kamu sepenuh hati...

aku tak nk jumpa kamu lagi!!!!!

doa jela...miracle...tk mustahil....

takziah kepada anda Statistical Inference....

p/s: terus bersemangat for next paper :)..masih mampukah tersenyum??...

semak kan?? but notice that how busy i am i still have time to look at my parents..time for my meal, and took care of my beauty (note the 'sikat' and the lotion) hahaha

DAY AFTER TOMORROW!!!!!

the day after tomorrow...

is the 'death' day...

aku tk pernah rasa belajar something yg tk faham lgsg sampai nk final...

i tot im the only person..

rupa2nye semua cmtu..

senior2 pon kate cmtu..

tidak2!!!

ade lagi 1 setgh hari lagi...

possible tak aku dpt habiskan semua???

ya Allah bantulah aku...

aku tk nk dpt C- n below...

huduh!!!! nk kasi lawa pointer ni seyh...

aku tk pernah benci subjek sepenuh hati aku..

tp 363 ni the worst!!

sape2 pon im warning,dont take this course!

nanges pon tk gune dah...

usaha dan tawakal...

mak ayah...doakan farah ye...

mata dh macam panda...

perut makin dh takde...

jerawat dh naik...

gara2 tido tk sempurna....

rasa nk pindah study kt hogwart..tkde exam..huaaa..

ape nk jawab isnin ni....

haaaiiissshhhhhhhhhhhh..mengeluh tk sudah...

tak baik mengeluh...nanges pon tk baik....

jadi teruskan usaha...

anda mampu merealisasikannye...pergh!!

p/s: we keep praying....i'm listening to you...always...

The Man Who Cant Be Moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand

Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand

I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man

I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do

How can I move on when I've been in love with you

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet

And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving

I'm not moving

Policeman says son you can't stay here

I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year

Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows

If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet

And you see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving

I'm not moving

I'm not moving

I'm not moving

People talk about the guy

Who's waiting on a girl, oh whoa

There are no holes in his shoes

But a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved

And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news

And you'll come running to the corner

'Cause you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved

I'm the man who can't be moved

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me

And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we meet

Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street

So I'm not moving

('Cause if one day you wake up, find that you're missing me)

I'm not moving

(And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be)

I'm not moving

(Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet)

I'm not moving

(Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street)

Going back to the corner where I first saw you

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

SorrY

maaf kawan2....

saya buat korang risau...

rumate saya pon...sorry...

sorry cik linda...

termarah kamu....termerajuk dgn kamu....

kadang2 ade benda yg sgt sensitif...

ayat kamu 1...tp yg datang kat kepala saya berduyun2...

sorry sbb kamu sampai nanges sbb saya tak balik2...huhu

saya bkn merajuk dgn kamu...

tp tertekan je....

org janji tk buat keje giler lg...huaa...

mcm drama kan...

aku campak2 semua barang atas katil aku..

rumate aku pon takot...

aku dok bwh meja, muka tutup dgn rmbt mcm org gler..

pastu aku kuar...blk mlm2..sorang2..tk pnh buat!

siap pesan kt linda..kalau aku tk balik b4 kul 12 tel polis..

hhaha..mmg kene tahan polis pon td...

dey pakcik polis..saya ade lesen la..

kawan2 aku dok masej2 call2 tp aku buat bodo..

balik je nmpk muke diorg risau gler...ayat kt status ym diorg...

sorry girls...

tp thanx kt nysa sbb memahami..

sbb ko tolong jelaskan kt diorg...

walaupon aku malu n susah nk explain...

thanx jgk kt lain2 sbb happy kan saaya...

kt rumate jgk yg cool..

saya janji tk buat lagi..huhuhu

Beautiful Lesson

look at this picture carefully...-BEAUTIFUL LESSON-

p/s~do u have time to accompany me like this?~

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23.
The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US .
Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.
In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.

p/s~u still want me when i look like this???~

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care
of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss

An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.
The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see their son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube , listening to a song from her husband and friends

At the reception, katie had to take a few rests. The pain did not allow her to stand for long periods

p/s~will u love me until the end of my day?~ Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a woman so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think..... Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it lasts . We should stop making our lives complicated. Make the best out of it! Life is short Break the rules forgive quickly love truly laugh constantly And never stop smiling no matter how strange life is Life is not always the party we expected to be but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

=)

kembali senyum...

yes!! buah hati saya dah balik..

gf no 2 saya pon dh nak balik..

boleh la saya senyum lagi...

semangat semakin bertambah...

harap2 pointer pon bertambah...huhu..

maka ayat kt blog pon akan makin berkurang...

sebab i keep juggling with numbers and my notes...

look forward and don't look back!

keep it up!

and continuously praying...

inshaAllah... :)

.........

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sakit perut tolong pg jauh2....

saya nak study....

tak sanggup lagi...

...(T_T)...

Banjir

Kangar juge dilanda banjir....

kesian tok saye....

rumah tok pon masuk air...

tok saya tk boleh jalan...

semalam truck askar angkut tok saya...

mesti tok saya sedih...

"angkut"..harsh gler ayat tu...

tp tu la yg mak cakap...

huhu...kesian kt tok...

nasib baik ade pak mok dgn auntie..

blh tgkkan tok...

kesian pak mok sbb kene pg rumah tok naik basikal..

banjir..mane kete boleh lalu...

tok pulak tibe2 sakit...

aduhai...saya tk blh trima berita sedih lg (T_T)

ayah pasti susah hati di rumah...

jadi saya kene belajar rajin2 kat sini...

keep it up farah!!!

H. B. to You

sgt sedih bila aku tkde sewaktu die sedih...

bila fkr die tk gembira...

bila kawan2 die derita..

jadi serba salah kat sini...

i try so hard to not make him sad..

but not fair for him and for me to be happy...

aku tau die pon same...

serba salah...

he tried to make me happy...and show me that he is ok...

from his voice i really feel like to cry...

but i wrapped it behind...

i must be stronger than him..

you don't have to pretend...

you must not care of my heart at this moment..

because its my time to care for yours...

i'm sorry if i'm not your good companion..

kadang2 aku takut aku tk pandai nk tunjuk.

aku terlupa itu semua..

tp aku tahu, kau tahu syg itu wujud..

risau itu ada..gelisah itu sentiasa...

aku takut aku tidak memahami..

aku takut aku ada pada masa yg salah..

aku tkt aku kekurangan sesuatu...

maafkan saye....

today is your day...

i wish you will be happy even a little..

sometimes its not fair for yourself...

i'm sorry i cant be there with you...

but i can sure you that i'll be there in your heart...

saya mungkin belum kawan yg baik utk kawan2 awak...

tp saya cuma mampu hadiahkan mereka dgn sesuatu..

cuma doa...surah yasin..untuk mereka...

aku tahu..

senyuman mu...kerianganmu..

hilai tawamu milik mereka...

i wish u could get them back...

p/s: selamat hari lahir.... I M Y ...

Fragile

its just a little heart..

which tend to break...easy to scratch..

sometimes its wet...sometimes it dry..

sometimes its like a desert..

sometimes its raining...but sometimes its full with flowers..

a little heart..

it is so fragile...

she so easy to cry..

always feel guilty..

for something not her fault..

always blame herself for something that she supposed not to...

she happened to have holes in her heart...

which kind of recover for years..

she learned to understand people..

she know how it hurt...

but she keeps smile...

because it was like her own kind of drug...

without it...she looks pale..

she wish

1. she is not the person who 'take' somebody away from anybody.

2. she may not feel guilty for her parents again..

3. she is stronger than 'him' at his difficult time..